Wednesday, December 04, 2002
Tuesday, December 03, 2002
I think if I get one more "important" thing to do I am going to lose it! My brain that is. My GOD these friggin teachers have just piled on the work...........you would think they only have a month left to the school year, not just the calendar year. It is almost overwhelming. Plus I think I picked the wrong time to try and change over my blog. I really like my green style that I came up with. I like the three columns, I like the banner type across the top, I like just about everything about it. BUT it doesn't seem to work out real good on Movable Type which I am switching to. AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH that template only took me two whole weekends to do, even if I did start from another template. I just learned how to do some stuff in Blogger type code, and now Movable Type code is different. Well, not much, but different enough that I haven't the faintest idea how to do it. I have so much homework right now, I can't breathe. Four term papers due by the 18th of December, and I am not getting any closer to writing them it seems.
Okay, sooooooooooo ouuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that doesn't work, who ever said that works!!! It's just a friggin noise, and it is aggravating too.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm did I have something really to talk about today. Well I did earlier, but I forgot about it.
Oh yeah, house update. The reconstruction on my cousins house is moving along .............so much so that the house doesn't have a roof this week! OH NO!!!! They took the roof off to add the second story on this week. Now they are supposed to have it done enough by Friday to live in the house again, but I don't know!!! So my cousins whole family is moved out and to a couple hotel rooms for the week. THAT's a major thing. We are supposed to go to a Christmas party on Friday for Suzy's work.........you know the program for Developmentally Disabled adults. The people really are cool. Most aren't seriously retarded (whatever the heck that means, I don't know, I just said that) and they are fun to be around, so a Christmas party will be interesting with something like 15 adults that still believe in Santa Claus!!!! LOL Then on Saturday, we are going on "The Bunny Hunt" We are driving to Sedalia Missouri to the State Fair grounds for a Rabbit show. Whatever a rabbit show is!!! LOL You see, my cousin Sarah, is getting a whole setup for breeding rabbits for Christmas. So we are going to the Rabbit Show to get her some bunnies! So the whole day, we are going to be walking around yelling BUNNIES YEA! LOL (Hows THAT for gay boi behavior?!) Should be fun though, there are a bunch of different kinds of Rabbits! Man I never knew rabbits came in so many kinds!
Oh yeah I STILL NEED GRAPHICS HELP!!! Won't somebody PLEASE help a poor little Zander boy get a logo or banner or link button? I have NO artistic talent at all, and really really really want one! (Banner, log and link button, not artistic talent, I could care less about artistic talent at this point in my life.)
Okay, you all can go back to your own boring lives now, I am finished describing mine for today...........now back to my depression. SIGHHHHHH
Monday, December 02, 2002
Here I had about three paragraphs of ramblings about being depressed over being back at school and missing family and being homesick which is such a strange feeling for me...............and I accidentally hit the close button on the window I was working in...............and of course I FRIGGIN lost everything sooooooooo, you get a break today.
But I do remember saying how much I love reading peoples blogs who are parents and all the fun and warm and fuzzy times they have with their kids, along with all the times they find their kid has decided to deodorize their shoes with baby powder and fingernail polish remover! LOL (That's a real one, recently, see if you can find it!) Well I have three in particular that are my daily reads: Aged and Confused, Da Goddess (Or Joanie to some) and KD: A Blog. I can highly recommed all three as really interesting reads!!! Very funny, sad, frustrating, lazy, ambitious, tired, anxious, nervous, elated...........and all at the same time!! OMG these people have more personalities that I do!!!! hehehehe
Okay, now the other thing I was saying before my mind went on a vacation and I deleted it all............was that it is more than fitting, beings I am in Religion class supposed to be researching for my term paper.........that I make total fun of Religion, while the teacher continues to read something I bet has absolutely NOTHING to do with religion, while he entire class actually goofs off! So here is a rather long thing, that a friend of mine sent me from a website called Insolitology. I haven't the faintest idea what that means, but this is a very funny, and very sacreligious outlook on a major premise of Christianity.............The Rapture! (See I can make fun of the rapture and still not get in trouble at school because Catholics are really not big Rapture fans anyway. It is one part of the bible that they conveniently say "That's Nice" and choose to ignore most of it. Me personally, I am non-commital on the whole "believe it because it is written in an ancient book" thingy anyway!!! Anyway, here it is..............
Alleee and Franc's
How to Survive the Rapture
To a Christian, the Rapture is great. You get to be whisked off to Heaven and live forever... or whatever. That's all good and well. But what about those of us who will be "left behind" ? How can we survive the "tribulations" that await us in our future Biblical nightmare ? To answer these vital questions, we give you this guide to surviving the Rapture, as explained by the web site Rapture Ready. Prepare your survivalist kit !
The Post Rapture Survival Guide
1. Signs that the Rapture is coming
First, you must be aware that the Rapture will only happen when a certain convergence of events happens, as directed by Satan and his plan for planetary corruption. Here are the signs that the end is soon at hand :
A man - the anti-christ - must arise to unite the world as a dictator. This may be Bill Gates, Muammar Gaddafi, Mikhail Gorbachev, King Jaun Carlos, Prince Charles, Vladimar Putin, Saddam Hussein, Uday Hussein, Yasser Arafat or Tony Blair, but the smart money is on Kofi Annan.
Apparently there will be the destruction of marriage and also civil wars. Actually that was kinda worse in the 18th century. I don't think they've been following history. Also, the anti-christ will be probably gay. I think it's terrible that the gossip has already started about the anti-christ, give him a break guys ! He's not even in office yet !
Huge multi-national companies and oppressed workers. Yea, that's so much worse than during the last century. Also, watch out for that mark of the beast ! Refuse the mark ! Sure, you'll be brutally killed by the government, but you'll SAVE YOUR SOUL.
We should see "increasing earthquakes, volcanoes, hurricanes, tornadoes, floods, drought, lightning storms and unusual atmospheric phenomena". How unusual are we talking about here ? Does El Nino count ? (actually it does, as we will see)
They also quote Matthew 24 as saying that Jesus predicted all sorts of wars and catastrophies before the Rapture, but I don't think they read the passage very well. It says that these things always happen, not that they are exceptional. Wait, I was expecting logic, never mind.
The Rapture will take place "in the twinkling of an eye". It seems simple, but this has consequences which have never been fully explored by Christians. If their brethen might dissapear immediately at any time, then they should be barred from a number of jobs. Airplane pilots, for one. How about supervisors at nuclear plants ? How about those guys who put the caramel in the Caramilk ? If they dissapear, who will replace them ? Anyone who believes in the Rapture should encourage discrimination against his breathen or sistren.
Logical breaches aside, it always amazes me how Rapture people claim that the world will disbelieve the event being due to the Rapture, and that there will be a cover-up.
The world's leaders will declare that there was no rapture, that a mass hysteria took place, and the news media will follow the party line. Then to make things easier, shortly after the rapture, one-fourth of the world's population will be decimated due to wars, famine and plague. Those who were raptured will be counted among the dead.
Let me get this straight. ONE BILLION PEOPLE - ONE SEVENTH OF THE WORLD POPULATION - DISSAPEAR INTO THIN AIR... AND EVERYONE WILL JUST BELIEVE IT WAS A MASS HYSTERIA ?
Then they're going to kill ONE AND A HALF BILLION PEOPLE MORE ? AND THEN PRETEND THAT GEE, THERE ARE 1 BILLION MORE DEAD THAT IT LOOKS LIKE, EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE ALL RAPTURED INSTANTLY ? WHAT ? HELLO ?
I read an awful lot of stupid things every day for the sake of Insolitology, but REALLY. There has to be a prize for this level of stupidity. There are so many things wrong with this scenario that ranting about it would be a futility.
Anyway, you wonder, is there a better way to know when the end is coming ? After all, all these signs are fairly vague. But do not despair !
The Rapture Index is somewhat well-known. It is an index maintained by Rapture Ready which measures the level of activity in various categories such as "False Christs", "Satanism", "Supernatural", "Ecumenism", "Gog (Russia)" or "Beast Government". Ratings go from 1 to 5 in each category, depending on daily events. Scores go anywhere from 60 to 180, with a historical minimum of 57 and maximum of 182.
As I write today (12/10/2002), the rating is 172, which is very high. And yes, El Nino is there, affecting the "Climate" category. Still no end of the world in sight, with or without El Nino.
Oops, I Guess I Wasn't Ready !
2. How to be saved
Do not despair : you can still be whisked away, IF you do not take the Mark. Very important !
Depending on how early you read this article, you may have heard people say, "Because we've missed the rapture, we are lost forever." That assumption is totally wrong! The only way you can find yourself eternally lost is by receiving the Mark of the Beast on your right hand or forehead. Barring that, as long as you have breath in your lungs, you can gain salvation by trusting in Jesus Christ as your Savior.
Apparently there are four things you must do to be saved : accept Jesus, change your attitude, only obey the Bible, disobeying Christian leaders, and martyrdom.
The situation is pretty simple. Everyone "good" has already been raptured, so everyone else is evil. The One World Government under the anti-christ is well in its way. You can't trust anyone except Jesus. All Christians will eventually be put to death. Pretty dramatic huh ? Now you see why the "Left Behind" series are so popular.
You could say heaven is much like the "clean rooms" where computer companies make their microchips, and sin is like any dust or dirt that might try to find its way into one of those rooms.
The manufacturing process for microchips requires "clean rooms" to be absolutely spotless, having virtually zero free-floating dust or dirt particles that could damage the delicate microchips.
Because humans are naturally contaminated with all kinds of dirt and dust particles, whenever workers enter one of these "clean rooms," they need to wear a special suit that prevents them from giving off particles.
To prevent heaven from becoming contaminated with sin particles, God has long set the requirement that anyone desiring to enter into His untarnished dwelling place needs to be covered by the blood of Jesus.
The sin decontamination process is very simple - you simply ask Jesus Christ, the Son of God, for it. First, admit your sinful state. Next, ask Jesus to forgive you of your wrongdoings. Finally, make Jesus Christ Lord of your life by surrending your will to Him.
I didn't know blood was sterile ! I know urine is sterile, but I guess having Jesus piss on you isn't as fancy.
3. Other things to watch for
The Tribulation should last 7 years. Watch for a number of things included in Revelations and Daniel, including :
The sun will be blackened and the moon will turn red (by an hyperactive angel with crayons ?).
Two Jewish prophets will preach the Gospel and get killed in the middle of the tribulation (get their autograph if possible).
Two meteors will burn up 1/3 of the earth and cause the sea to become like blood. That's some weird meteors. A star will fall from the sky, which will make everyone wonder how a star can be so small, and how come we never saw it before.
The day on Earth will be reduced to 16 hours, in accordance with Gene Ray's Time Cube clock.
Mankind will be attacked by anthropomorphic locusts and 200 million horse-like creatures. They will all be defeated by the laws of biology.
Thee final battle will oppose all the armies of Earth to God, but the big guy will crush the armies with giant rocks and a great earthquake. Then, look out for the return of Jesus Christ Superstar. He should be the one with the sword in his mouth.
And whatever you do, DON'T TAKE THE MARK !
review written by Franc, 10/2002.
Okay so thats it!!! There you have it, how to survive the rapture. For me, I personally would LIKE to survive any Rapture that there is. For everyone that goes with the Rapture is GONE!!!!! Anyway, this was all tongue in cheek. If you believe in the Rapture, then goodie for you, please keep on because it helps you get by in your daily life. But for me...........I think this is all a little too weird to be taken too seriously. Okay, class over............time to go back to my house and do homework. SEEYA
Sunday, December 01, 2002
Okay so this entry is real late for me! But I was hoping that my new blog site would be up and running today, but that looks like that isn't going to happen right now, sooooooooooo I guess I'm here for a few more days.
So...............the chili supper fund raiser was a bad thing. It didn't turn out well at all........lots of chili, no customers. The home had tons of chili, and made only $140. They spent more than that on the stuff Suzy said. Well, I didn't think it would do that good, but hey what do I know? So after the chili thingy, Allen and Michael and I (oh yeah Michael, is this really cool guy my age that stayed with us for the weekend. He is actually one of the residents in this program, but he was tons of fun to be around and we went to lots of movies cause he doesn't get to go to much where he lives.) Anyway, we went to see Die Another Day. I can't get enough of that movie.........(okay, so I like to look at Halle Berry again! hehehe) But seriously I think it is the best JB movie ever put out. So he loved it, and I loved it, and Allen I guess put up with seeing it a third time now for him.
Well this weekend was the absolute best time I ever had in my life, but it is over, and now the depression sets in.
We took Michael home on our way back to take me to school today. So we said goodbye at a resturant in the town he lives in and his house staff picked him up from us. I'm going to miss hanging out with him, but I will see him next weekend, at least on Friday, there is a Christmas party that we all are going to. I really don't know if I should get too attached to him, he is very nice, and I like him a lot, and stuff, but he is in a program for developmentally disabled and well, what is the possibility of any kind of relationship there. There isn't. Oh well, okay now onto school. Arrived at good old TPA a little later than we are supposed to, so I have a few demerits for that! LOL, strange things our demerit system. We are responsible for everything, even if it is a teacher, or parent or whomever was the real problem. But, I hardly ever earn demerits, so I got a ways to go before I have to work any off!
So Allen and the family leave, and all the boys are back now, soooooooooo, it is funny, I had the best holiday I ever had in my life, but to these guys, they wouldn't understand why at all. All they talk about is what ski resort they went to, or how the Macy's parade was cool, or how they went to Hawaii or all over the place. They think I had a lousy Thanksgiving because I stayed in Missouri! But you know, they always have had their families. So they are tired of that stuff. So essentially I have nothing to talk to them all about. Now I got to get working on my dang term papers. I got four of them due in two weeks. I have done some research on them, but not nearly enough, so these two weeks are going to be just WONDERFUL.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHh okay, enough boring stuff for today. I got to get to bed now.
Saturday, November 30, 2002
Okay, so why is it, that some people when they CAN cook something really good, think that everyone else wants to know how they do it? Not only that, but they go way out of their way to SHOW other's how they do it. LOL
My cousin Allen is cooking chili this morning (not just any chili, but HUGE amounts of chili for a fundraiser) and he is determined that I will know exactly how he cooks his special (read into here............blow fire out your ass) chili!!! LOL You know, I don't know how to boil water..........I really don't care to know how to boil water.............at one point in time several months ago, I was wondering if I had to learn all those things for myself because if I was going to be poor folk (sorry for the obvious slam) I would have to do those things for myself. But you know what? Things changed..............I don't have to worry about doing that stuff for myself, so why learn it? Hmmmmmmmmm? I mean if I want to, that's one thing. I can see that people enjoy cooking and baking and stuff, but I have no desire to. For me..........let someone else do it. Okay call me a snob.........(YOUR A SNOB) Hey you didn't have to shout it at me!!!! But hey, somebody has to hire all the people from the hispanic side of Kansas City.........I mean there are just not enough Old Country Buffets around to hire them all!!! (No don't go leaving me comments saying I hate Hispanics and put them down. I love Mexican Americans. I was raised by several very sweet ladies who would try their best to do nice things for me, until they got fired and sent back to Mexico. I am just making the point that most of the house staff and cook type people around here in KC are Hispanics!!! And they do a damn good job of it, and work very very hard for their money.)
Oh yeah, another thing.................da goddess............who is one of my regular blog reads........you should check out her site, always cool!!..........anyway, da goddess recomended that I ask my cousins to allow me to get them things for Christmas as my present. Well I already done that too. I can't really put the things I am getting them in here, because they all read my blog every day! LOL, ruin the surprise worse than my little 8yo cousin Stevie. Who by the way, if he doesn't stop waking me up when I ignore him, by pinching my dick................is not going to live until Christmas!!!! We will have Stevie chili some night, and I guarentee that I will learn how to cook it!!! hehehe (now, I hope he reads THAT)
Okay, another matter................people, please don't send me emails asking for money...........I am not going to send it to you...........I am not stupid, I know there are a ton of scams out on the internet, and I am not about to get caught in one. Also, everything I have, is controlled by lawyers and conservators and accountants, so much that I have to get reciepts for everything. I have just a very little bit every week that I can spend without having to account for it..........okay, it's $30 that's it.
But I have another rather pressing problem to solve by December 31st. My lawyer got me these accountants, and they are very nice and helpful, but they pointed out that the money I am bringing into the US into US banks, is counted as income according to the IRS. Not only that, but it is counted as unearned income, meaning, gifts, or something like that. So it is taxed at something like 38%???????? So they say, that if I can find GOOD charities that are registered with IRS as Not-For-Profit, to give some money away to, then it would cut down my taxes a bunch. I mean I still will have to shell out the money, but more would go places that need it rather than just to finance President Bush's dreams of military glory! So here's what I want to do...........I do NOT want to give money to really big places like United Way, and Salvation Army. Those places make millions every year. True they help a lot of people, but eveybody gives to them. I want to know about small charities, that do very good work, and need some money (okay I know, all charities need money, but you know what I mean). So if you know of a place, leave me a comment, or send me an email, tell me about their work, tell me how you know what they do, tell me how to check them out, and give me an address and phone number. I will have my accountant check them out and see how they stand, and make sure they are registered and incorporated correctly, and then I will consider giving them a donation. I am NOT promising I will do this for any program that is sent in. I may get overwhelmed with response, but let's see what comes up okay?
Alrighty then..............time for lesson number SIX in a never ending series of chili cooking lessons...............so goodbye for now.
Friday, November 29, 2002
Like that isn't obvious to anyone reading this blog more than once? LOL Well, a problem other than the obvious ones! People want to know what I want for Christmas. Allen, Suzy, Sarah, other people have asked too. The problem is................I can't think of anything!!! I mean I am a spoiled rotten kid for one. I grew up with all the money anyone would ever want, and so anytime I wanted something I always bought it. I had an account that I just charged anything to when I wanted. So as a result...........I have all the stuff I ever wanted!! I can't think of anything except those really trite (okay spellers, is that right?) things like "Peace on Earth" or "I just want a family that loves me, that's enough". You know what I am really looking forward to this Christmas.........is surprising some other people with some presents. I never got to buy other people stuff. TPFKAD never allowed me to buy presents for people that worked for us, and well, getting TPFKAD something was just about the last thing I ever thought about. Well, I lied..........I do remember one year about three years ago buying him a portable CD player. He didn't open it, it just sat there on his desk for months, and then it disappeared. But THIS year LOL, well besides the house being added on to..........there will be some pretty nice surprises (which I can't say here, cause everyone that would get the stuff reads my blog!!! )
But what in the world do I ask for? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (just talking to myself and taking you along for the ride)
Oh yeah we are taking 10 mentally retarded guys to see Harry Potter this afternoon. Now THAT should be a blast! Really these guys are amazing. They have no embarrasment over anything........and are just so much fun being around. LOL, they like to play parent with all the kids in the family. They watch over Stevie and me and Sarah and try to tell us not to do this and to do that. Not in a pushy sort of way, but like they are responsible for us. LOL it is sweet. Well, okay there is one that is kind of a jerk, but hey HE'S RETARDED!!!! So I can understand. They want to see Harry Potter, and the lady that runs the homes, she really hates to take them to movies, but loves it when someone else does! (Suzy, my cousin's wife works for her as the Assistant Director) So Suzy and Allen decided that we would take them. So, we take two big vans, and load everyone up and go to the movies!!! This I gotta see!!! LOL
Well, hope everyone has a good day shopping. Personally, I am staying far away from stores today!! Later!!!
Thursday, November 28, 2002
.........as the happiest day in my life so far. Today was great. Stuffed myself with lots and lots of food. (Okay doc, NOW weigh me and bitch that I keep losing weight!!) We had something like 20 people for the afternoon and evening. It was such a good time to be with people who act like family. I have missed a lot............it makes me so very sad and at the same time so very happy that I have this now. I wonder when it is all going to fall apart, like my life always does.
There was no yelling today, no threatening, no cussing, nothing expected of me except to set the table and clear..................everyone was wonderful. To top it off, there was this extremely cute boy named Michael there that I like a lot. He is close to my age, and just ouuuuuuuuuuuuuu so nice. He is staying the weekend here and we are taking him back to his place Sunday on my way back to St. Louis. I am getting driven back this Sunday, mostly to take Michael back. See he lives in a group home for developmentally disabled that my cousins wife runs. Yes he is a little retarded, but the sweetest person you could ask for............
I loved today, I love my new family..............I love life............when is it going to end? I hope not ever.
I hope everyone had at least 1/2 as good a Thanksgiving day as I had.
So, I'm all back home in Kansas City, exhausted, and feeling real ambiguous (my vocabulary word of the day!!) about how things went in Chicago. As expected, people at the funeral parlor were jerks, and as expected the will meeting went pretty badly too. TPFKAD is planted in the cold cold ground (and boy was it cold.......it snowed something like 6 inches in Chicago!) and as a last final "I love you son" from him, he left me two houses.............with lots of upkeep and staff expenses, and not even the ones I like! Not the one in Kansas City, not the Condo in Aruba, and certainly not the house in Key West. Soooooooooo according to my lawyer, this now starts a couple years of court battling over how he left all his estate! Excuse me............can I get off this carnival ride please? It's making me sick. Truthfully, I really couldn't care less in lots of ways about getting any more money. But you know, I somehow can't stand the thought of TPFKAD fucking me again. Okay, it's a holiday and this year, it is a great one for me............so enough bitching.
Thoughts on Thanksgiving
I have thought a lot in the past two years about what I believe in and what I can't justify in my mind and make myself believe in. I believe that most people are good, and kind, and try to live their lives in harmony with others. I believe that most of us fail miserably in this attempt many times, but pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off and try again. I believe that there are also people who will go to extremes to help out someone else, and make sure they are safe. I believe in good, and I believe that there is bad in the world. However, I am not really sure what I believe when it comes to the existence of a being that controls everything with his/her/it's fingertips. I have actually read the bible from beginning to end, and I thought........what a nice book. But, I couldn't believe that everything in it is real, that everything in it could happen, and I was not convinced that everything in it should even be the sole reason for directing my life. Sorry to all you who do believe, and I will grant that most people do believe strongly in either the Christian Bible, the Islamic Koran or some other religious book that tells you how to live your life and why you should live it that way. I actually admire people who can place faith in those religions and live their lives based on faith that someone, some being is out there looking after you and that you can pray to and he/she/it will take care of you. But..................and this is a big but..................I can't believe in something so simple. It is way too simple..............things in this world don't work like that. My grandmother...........yes she is still alive.........is a very devote Catholic. She always prays to this saint for things...........She tells me to pray to St. Jude because he is the patron saint of hopeless causes. HUH?????? so St. Jude is going to wave his fingers and make the bathroom door unlock? okay, so maybe God will make the door unlock? Oh now I get it, so God will make someone else come to the bathroom and unlock the door..............ummmm okay, so how come that someone whom God made come and unlock the door, now is going to demand oral sex with me to let me out?
So for me, I just can't make myself believe in it. I don't hold anything against those who do believe in it..........it's fine. If that is what helps you handle the hard times and get over problems and get on with your lives, that is great. It works for you. But it doesn't work for me. Sooooooooooooooooooooo in spite of all this..........I do believe in Thanksgiving. I do believe that this is a very good time of year to look at things in our lives and say.........hey in spite of all the problems, I have a lot to be thankful for. (Now I don't know who my type of logic would say to THANK for this, but let's not go there right now. Okay?) Maybe we thank each other for being there.............so, here is my list of things I am thankful for, not in any particular order or anythign with the exception of the first one is the thing I am most thankful for.........
I am thankful for..............
1. My friend Tony, you have saved me in more ways than you could ever imagine. I love you and always will.
2. That this holiday season, I am not flying around the world, watching parades and eating caviar from little silver spoons
3. That this Thanksgiving.........I feel like I am part of a family
4. Allen, Suzy, Sarah, and Stevie
5. The Hogeland Family who have done way more than their job description ever said.
6. Warm beaches, red sunsets, ocean waves, and moutain tops
7. That someone, somewhere, somehow, figured out how to connect all these computers in the world into the internet, so I could talk to wierd, nice, crazy, lonely, and other kinds of people all over the world.
8. My floppy wiener dog who keeps me warm and kisses me at all the right times.
9. that I live in a country that allows me to say the things I say in this blog and not arrest me for treason or heresy
10. that there are people in this country willing to risk their lives so that our country STAYS free
12..Dave who was always nice to me and did things he wasn't supposed to for years because he liked me
13. Carmelita who was one of our house staff.............she and her son were always willing to do things for me and with me when nobody else would. She is so poor, but so rich.
14. Doctors who have amazing skills to fix eyes, and bones and diseases so that people can live and not just curl up and die.
15. living in a place in the world, that I don't have to worry about getting blown up every time I walk out of the house, or into a store, or wonder if someone I love will come back from a trip to the grocery store.
16. Gaining 4 pounds ! LOL YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LOL (if I take a shower and put on a whole bunch of clothes I am up to a whopping 109lbs!!!)
Okay there are a million other things but I can't think of any more.....................but I will say this.....................this is the first year I can remember that I am glad to be alive. That isn't due to anything I did, but due to what several other people have done this year that is amazing. I love you all...........have a Happy Thanksgiving Day and the rest of your lives too.